Hi joyful, smart, beautiful baby girl! A few months ago I noticed that your left eyes just didn't look quite right. I couldn't quite put my finger on it and asked your Chrissy what she thought. Being an artist, I knew she could pinpoint what was going on. Your left eye seems to drift inward sometimes but isn't very noticeable. I talked to the doctor about it at your 9 month appointment, which went great! She saw what I was talking about and referred us to the opthamologist at Ft. Campbell. Although I realized the range of possibilities (from simply growing out of it, to needing to patch one eye, to sight loss), thankfully I didn't give it another thought in the 4 weeks between the appointments. Today was your appointment with the specialist and I was surprised that you were not the only child in the waiting room. You met a little boy around the age of 4 who was being seen for his hearing. His speech was so delayed, that he was more difficult to understand than most 18-24 month olds. He was a happy, friendly little boy who liked playing with you but I couldn't help but think about the struggles that he has ahead because of his hearing problems. It all became a little more real to me then as I waited for your name to be called.
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| You can see the slight drift in the left eye. (Somebody was apparently spitting her water out onto her shirt) |
I answered all of the doctor's questions, summarizing that you have had a very healthy life so far, as you squirmed in your stroller. Next, you sat in my lap while the doctor performed a few tests to see how you were using each of your eyes. When your right eye was covered, you still tracked objects with your left. Next, the doctor covered the left eye, the one that drifts inward. When the drifting eye is covered, sometimes it turns inward further, signaling that the brain is not using the weaker eye and that sight loss is imminent. Thank the Lord, your eye stayed strong and did not move inward!! Then she dilated your eyes to check the strength and if there is a need for glasses. Again, she saw nothing out of the norm for your age! I am so relieved that there are no major or underlying problems with your beautiful eyes. The doctor was so impressed with how well you interacted with her and thought you were very smart! We will go back in a few months to check to see if it has gotten any better or worse. As your mother, I can't help but to want the smoothest, pain-free path in life for you. But I realize that so much is out of my control and that bumps and struggles are certain. So instead of worrying over what might happen and stressing over what is happening, I will do my best to prepare you to handle life with grace and maturity and trust in the Lord.